28.2.2010

Isnt life just great?

I mean you would think id get a break once in a while.

Fuck.

17.1.10

I told the guy about my obsession. I dont think he gets it, he just told me i was beautiful, the same way that everyone does. I get it, I know my thighs are thin and my legs go on for ever. But still, i have a huge stomach, tiny little non-boobs and a really rounded chubby face.
I know i should give myself a break and practice some body loving, but the most important part of everyday is centred on that morning torture of stepping on those scales. 10 8. Thats what stares back at me, and i feel like crying. Just bring on 8 10. Invert the numbers. Make me happy.

Charlotte-Lucy xoxo

16.1.10

So guys. Today, placement felt sooo tedious, as in i am getting bored of it. Bored and just plain broody. I told this to the guy, and he replied "can guys get broody too"
Thank god for my contraceptive implant! Haha. I hope to god he doesnt get his mitts on this blog!
So yes, the pictures ... its my first date outfit. Whatcha think? I want casual but not sloppy! And of course i will be wearing the amazing gel bra!!
Tonight we ate pancakes and made VERY Special K :P It was amazing and i love my girls to bits!!
So, now instead of doing my work which i should be doing, i am listening to "genre - soundtrack" on my ipod, while dancing around in my very retro night shirt and complaining about the lack of hot water!
Charlotte-Lucy xoxo

15.2.10

Soo i know im rubbish at this blog thing. Haha! But yes, there is a guy that i am texting all the time, and i think it could be leading somewhere, and quite frankly that scares the shit out of me! I am a total romantic and i am ready for love again, but at the same time i dont want to have my heartbroken all over again.


Anyway, valentines yesterday was amazing! Me, Anita and Lauren ate curry (well actually i ate pizza) and mini eggs and watched saw films :) The guy text me at 12.01am to say happy valentines day which made my day!


Then today i have had a no carbs, no fat, no anything really kind of day :) And im heading over for some sophisticated tea with chloe in a minute. I feel like a lucky girl at the moment.

12.2.10

To my heart

this blog is a sincere letter of apology to you. I know that you are just healing from the mess that my last love left you in, but i have a confession to make. I think i am falling in love again.

This isnt a crush, or even someone just because its almost valentines. This is a full on butterflies in the stomach, texting all night kind of affair. I dont want to let myself fall too deep and then be dissapointed, but at the same time i dont want to discard such a wonderful feeling.

Charlotte xoxo

09.2.10

Ok, so i know i am aweful at this journal! I promise i am going to try my hardest to update everyday :)

So, this weekend was absolutely perfection. I went home and got to spend the weekend with some girls who i absolutely love to pieces. It took me back to good old times before i fell in love and had my heart smashed. True love = Bethan and Milly :)

Today i have been working hard on my childrens nursing placement, and it has been a lot of fun :) Though i am VERY pissed off that the flatmate finds it perfectly acceptable to steal my hot chocolate. I find that VERY rude.

The diet is going well, i think.

Charlotte xoxo